I finally started my first book

I don't know what happened or where the motivation came from but I think, one day, I just decided this week to start?

I guess because I turned 27 years old, I thought over the next three years this would be more than enough time to write, edit, collect information and publish before I turn thirty! Bet your bottom dollar I will be a New York Times Best International Seller! Listen, I already cried when I started this process - it is cathartic AF! You know? To just remember the past and relive those experiences by closing my eyes, taking me back to homes, people and feelings that I lived through in foster care. This process is going to take a lot of discipline and courage, to sit down and just let it all out without any filter. There is so much to say and so much I have very much never talked about.

So my question to you is are you going to read it?

I had every intention to make Saturday mornings, the day, I dedicate to writing the book which to be honest has been a failure. I felt like I didn’t have enough information to start. So I reached out to to six very important people and asked if they would be willing to be interviewed. These people have played a huge part in my life, during the years of my foster care experience. Five out of six said they were willing to help me fill in the gaps of what I cannot remember as a kid. One of them was the CEO of one of the Foster Agencies I was with.

So as I went to California to visit family and friends I had an interview planned with her.

Talk about divine connection, I haven’t seen her in years but I have been seeing the angel number 555 (change) a whole lot. I just could not pinpoint what that meant for me until I received her address in California. “555_ _ ave”.

Let me tell you when I walked away from that interview... I left with contact information of two very important women, who, let's just say, walked similar paths as I did and are now published authors through agencies based in New York City! I still cannot freaking believe it. I have connections now based on the East Coast. I am honestly so excited to pick these womens’ brains and talk about how to do such thing - as they have published multiple books that are now in my possession because of my interviewee.

Not to mention she was able to get a copy of my 300 page CPS file! Let me tell you - it was hard to read through but it gave me the inspiration to request my public county records. Do you know how easy it was? Too easy. It was 400 pages and I couldn’t even get through the first 50 without crying multiple times. It just feels so surreal everything is working.

I have created the Book Proposals, for the rest of the people being interviewed, so I have been really just focused on doing this the right way (my version). All that is next is to finish up these interviews, request one more file from another Foster Agency and start writing…