Spiritual Coach

& intuitive Tarot Reader

Are you facing a difficult decision?

I can imagine there have been times in your life you wanted to pursue a dream job, hobby, open a business or gain confidence to post online but it feels difficult to take that leap into the unknown. You might feel apprehensive to talk about it to others because they might not believe in you, hold you back or you might not believe in yourself. You feel as if you don’t have what it takes, the resources or financial means to make such an idea come to life. I bet there is even a fear of failing or better yet succeeding and not knowing what to do next. Perhaps, you are just looking for someone to believe in you or give that push.

That’s why You need a spiritual coach

In those times you just need someone to ground your energy, affirm your confidence and challenge you to listen to your intuition - that “deep knowing”. Especially when you are being pulled in a certain direction, feel a message emerging out of you, or feel something is about to happen for you. Intuition is a muscle you strengthen over time and my job is to pull that out of you. In the end, you need someone who has been in your position and made it out on the other side.

Nothing Holds me back anymore…

let me tell you why…

I moved to the East Coast just like I said I would. 

I didn't know how or when it was going to happen, I just felt it in my bones that it was coming.

I was raised in 10 different foster homes. I suffered all forms of abuse, neglect and a disorder called “trich”. A compulsive urge to pull out body hair, so much I went bald by fifth grade. My biological mother was an alcoholic/drug addict. I spent the majority of my youth trying to survive and used  self-destruction as a form of coping with the environments I had no control over. 

I found myself in two extreme lifestyles. The first with a single mother who was dependent on government aid, hustling to make ends meet. The second, with a happily married Christian couple who worked hard for their successes and lived out the rewards of doing so. I grew up fast, became emotionally intelligent and aware of everything. There were long days and nights I cried for peace in my heart, mind and soul. There were moments I blamed God and myself for it all. There were seasons I didn’t think I would live to see another day. Many times I felt as if I had no one in my corner and other times it felt like I had a village behind me.

As a teenager I talked about the things I wanted to do when I got older: travel to Europe, live in a big city, go to college, be successful etc. I felt there was so much the world could offer me but I grew up in a home with high expectations.

I heard recurring messages that said:

“You can’t travel at a young age without saving money.”
“Teaching isn’t a real career.”
“Are you even sure you will graduate? ”

I never felt adequate enough because when I shared these dreams with people closest to me, I felt questioned. I was met with separation and the older I got, the more I second-guessed myself. I sought validation in others, instead of trusting myself.

One day, I decided enough was enough. 

I didn’t want to feel inadequate ever again. No matter what, I told myself I would not hold back and listen to my intuition! So I started to take chances.

Chances on love, dreams and most importantly myself! I moved away from my hometown to a state where I had no family or friends, traveled to different cities and states alone, left the church and converted to the spiritual world. I taught myself  how to read tarot, manifest, practice affirmations and express gratitude in everything I did. I learned how to sit in the uncomfortableness of my singleness instead of coping with temporary satisfactions like sex, alcohol and exes. Yes, there were times I fell short but this was something that took years to understand and master.

the universe

just knew…

In the Winter of 2020-21, I was at my lowest. My lifelong dream to move to New York City fell through. I just graduated from college and had been living alone for almost two years in Amarillo, Texas. I was lonely. I didn’t have any furniture except my bedroom set, which sat in the living room of my one bedroom apartment. To top it all off, I got really sick and had no other choice but to stay in Texas and take care of myself. 

I was beginning to lose hope, until something special happened…

It was a rainy night, I was laying in bed with a candle illuminating the darkness of my living room. I was scrolling on TikTok and found Anna Vatuone.


Anna had posted a video of her journey traveling from coast to coast. She packed her belongings, left her other things in storage, and drove from California to Boston just to see the leaves change color. I remember feeling so empowered by her story. I thought I had to meet her. After getting to know her online, I found Personal Brand Accelerator, a three month course she created that spoke to me in more ways than one. She gave me hope in gaining a community, a transition after graduating college, and the ability to learn how to post intentionally with all of the stories I wanted to share. So, I applied for an interview jokingly, thinking “Maybe if I get an interview, I can meet her!” The next day I was invited for an interview with her!

That was when the trajectory of my life had changed. 

Upon joining Personal Brand Accelerator, I quickly discovered I had something special within me that would turn into a successful business one day. Over the following six months, I graduated from PBA, had surgery, moved home to California to recover and left my teaching job. Summer came around and I was invited by Anna to become a Personal Branding Coach. Of course, I said yes! I knew this was the start of something greater but for now my vision to move to the East Coast was surrendered. 

In the midst of the three months as a Personal Branding Coach, the unbelievable happened. I received a job offer to teach ESL in Boston, Massachusetts! I immediately called Anna, humbly asking if I could stay with her while I got on my feet (I had never met her in person) and she said yes!

September came around, I packed two suitcases and was on a one-way flight from Fresno, California to Boston, Massachusetts.

How I went from

teaching to tarot

All my life I chased after a career that felt right, safe and stable - teaching.

Growing up all I knew was how to struggle, fix, and persevere everything until I attained it. This mindset limited me though…to know beyond struggle. The ability to believe there was more to life than a fixed income, long work days, and a mundane routine.

Moving to Boston and living that life out, the more it occurred to me - I was not meant to work this hard, only to be unhappy with something that I love to do. It felt forced and showed in my attitude, my conversations, my home, and my happiness.


So I followed my intuition…I decided to resign from full-time teaching.

I could no longer hide how hard it was for me. Struggling to find happiness in my environment, identity and choices. I wasn’t satisfied. I felt this deep knowing something isn’t right, but that changed when I moved in with Anna. 

Secretly, I knew I had a gift…

wisdom and intuition.

But I didn’t know what to do with it or how to teach in a different way. 

Living with Anna pushed me to ask myself  how do I give people direction and the courage to take action? How do I help others find the confidence and confirmation in what they already feel compelled to do just as I did?

Over the course of a year trying to figure this out, I decided it was best to stick to teaching part-time, read tarot when I could and face the life struggle of rehoming my dog while closing the chapter of Anna and I living together. 

That’s when I moved across the states on a one-way flight. 

to Denver, Colorado!

Today, I am officially a full-time remote Spiritual Coach and Intuitive Tarot Reader.

 I read tarot to the public here at local pop-up events and privately from home. I teach a tarot course called TameTarot and I visit Massachusetts quite regularly to visit Anna and my special girl Leeza in Stowe, Vermont. I am currently writing my first book ever but now that my lease here in Denver comes to an end, I am not sure where my next journey begins.

If you want to know where I end up,  follow me here.

my personality types

Enneagram

As Type Eight, The Challenger, I am initiative, sensitive and decisive.

A natural leader who uses my strengths to ground and empower others.

My Big three

As a Leo rising, let’s be honest I live for the dramatic effect, grand gestures and big dreams! I take pride in the people I surround myself with, my work environment and making a long lasting impression.

As a Leo Sun, I represent the Lion. Someone who is dominant, strong, loyal and expressive! I am very protective of the ones I love. Although I am known for my confidence, I love to bring it out in others!

As a Scorpio Moon, I naturally am empathetic to others. I have a heightened sense of intuition. I thrive off variety and change. I love with deep immensity and bring the truth to light always.

values

I place high value on integrity, dedication, wisdom,

uplifting others to reveal their potential and balancing all facets of self identity.

the story about a Special girl named Leeza

​​After weeks of talking about bringing a puppy home, Anna called me from Idaho and she said, “I just feel like Laurence and Leeza are supposed to stay together. Is that crazy? I just don’t think I can do it on my own.” My response without hesitation was “You’re not alone. I can help you.”  

Anna and Crystal. Laurence and Leeza, best friends with sibling puppies all under one roof, it just felt right.

Anna drove from Idaho, I flew to Minneapolis from Boston and together we drove them across the country to Boston, Massachusetts. Not many people would do such a thing when the future is uncertain and to be honest we were a little out of our minds.  

Leeza was truly an unexpected blessing in my life. She taught me how to stay grounded and how to receive unconditional love. As someone who deals with chronic anxiety, OCD and mental illnesses on a daily basis, I should’ve known better. I am easily triggered. Leeza amplified my survival instincts. Over the course of a year, living in the city and working two jobs from home; it became financially, emotionally and physically hard to support her. I could not give Leeza the time and attention she needed and deserved.

I always had a vision for Leeza. It looked something like her on a farm in the mountains, running against the wind with her floppy ears, basking in the sun, herding sheep and living without a care in the world. 

After many long and hard conversations, Anna and I decided it was time to find Leeza a new home. This was by far one of the hardest choices I have ever made but I knew it was for the best. I remember feeling so discouraged as my options felt limited and time was ticking. I wanted nothing but the absolute best for her. 

That’s when my good friend Gretchen introduced me to someone in Stowe, Vermont. An active young man with an older Border Collie, homeowner with land, in a city of nature. I reached out, we talked and last December Gretchen, Ruby, Leeza and I drove up to Vermont to meet with him. 

I knew instantly. It would be him. I didn’t come down the mountain with her that weekend because my vision for her came to life. Leeza now lives in Stowe, Vermont almost a year later, with her new brother. She hikes every day, swims in the creeks and is living her best life. 

If you’re wondering, Anna, Laurence and I have visited her since. She of course remembered her brother, Laurence and I'm so thankful that she is still very much in our lives today.

  • Laurence and Leeza in Chicago.

  • First Day in Boston

  • Our new home in Beacon Hill

  • The bandanas...

  • Laurence and Leeza in Canada

  • Beach day at Nahant

  • My Birthday Photoshoot

  • Lots of kisses

  • Hiking in Fall

  • In Stowe with Gretchen

  • Leeza & her new brother

  • Reunited 6 months later

  • Stowe, VT